Ah hem

SO that sore throat has become something a bit more noticeable as of this afternoon, I have no voice left really, and it really hurts, plus the small pain in the back of my head.

I wonder.

I have been reading all my updates and undertsand lots of useful info about H1N1, and really I have wondered more about the when than the if, but I realy do hope this isn't it, and that they rest of the family don;t get ill.

No fever so until that strikes I shall try and ignore it a bit and hope for the best. I don't actually feel ill ill, so that it probably the best thing.

I may just go and sit out side in the brief bit of sunshine I can see outside, after torrential rain and here I am wearing a jumper in July !!! it will most likely be a tonic...either that or I'll get a chill and will succumb after all.

It has been salutory observing the unfolding press coverage of this pandemic and I kind of hoped that that would be the nearest we'd come, there is so much going on that I could see a huge hole being ripped in our summer if we get ill, but we don't get to decide so best to embrace what will be, drink fluids and hope, and pray.

Clouds Drifting

I have entered a new place in life recently, and although I can't guarantee that I shall stay here it has a great deal of novelty.

I am committing myself to meeting new people, inviting them round, arranging to spend mornings out with them, going round for lunch, feeding them my very own cooking.

Now I am aware that very many other people manage this without a second thought and thrive on it, and no I haven't been a hermit for most of my life. But I have been a bit shy, and a bit scared that I wont be any good at it, and that people wont actually like me, or will get food poisoning from my food, or that the conversation will dry up and there will be .... awkward silences........................................

But here I am , having a go, doing something new and trying out being a more confident and sociable person, as if I felt sure that people would like my company and enjoy hanging out with me, and mostly it seems that that is true.

Wow.

I wonder if the sock knitting had anything to do with it.

Possibly my recent stint of personal therapy has increased my self acceptance or something, or possibly I am just acting like the persona I want to be , or that person I am really underneath the insecurities. Dunno.

Leave me wondering what I should try out next.

Where shall I find?

I have finished knitting a pair of socks.

They are the first pair of socks I have ever attempted and although their are signs of the learning experience they do fit and look very realistic.

I feel all brand new, because it is still delightful to do new things for the first time, and to achieve a new skill.

Good eh?